Thursday, November 27, 2008
the new post that i am now writing after u have deleted the whole blog.. i told myself that i cant let all the efforts that we had once put in go all to waste.. so i am now retrieving it back.. the blog template looks damn ugly la.. but at least that precious moments figurine looks like the one i got for u for the photo frame so it does have alil memories..
"i wonder which part of the world u are at now.. but yeap tmr it will be my competition.. i dunno y i'm telling u this haha but yea u said u'll support me in all my comps.. but this time round u wun.. i guess it's lil diff for me i guess.. tats y these few days i'm spending it all alone myself.. i dunno wat's the link haha but yea.. shrugs take care"
a mixture of feelings when i read this.. happy n upset.. happy to show that i still mattered to u.. and that u do miss me.. n reminisce the memories that we have together.. and that u put down the wall of defend u have against me and send me a msg like this.. upset coz i so much wanted to support u.. if i could i would wan to fly back to support u..
i was glad i went to look for u.. i guess heaven was by my side.. i told myself if it rains when i wanna go find u means it's askin me not to.. then so luckily it stopped when i was done eatin.. so off i went.. n i knew definitely u wont wanna see me for long.. but who knows.. it rained.. n u wont bear to leave me standing in the rain.. so i came in.. then i told u i will go when the rain stops.. but it got heavier! :) muz be a sign from up above.. happy.. u know it's so difficult juz sittin 2 seats away from u n lookin at u from far.. i juz really miss u sooo much.. really i do.. then started talkin to u abt stuff.. i know u dun wanna say that u still love me.. i dunno wat's the reason behind it.. maybe because sayin it will make u feel more vulnerable n that u dun wan to be affected by it..
but i went to ur room.. i saw an iphone on ur bed.. i m sorry.. i went to see if it's ur phone.. n pressed the button.. the 1st thing i saw was mel's sms.. i m sorry.. i m not tryin to stalk or check ur stuff.. i juz wanted to see if it's ur phone and u have changed to an iphone.. i didnt even know wat did she sms.. i juz saw her name... n my heart really nearly stopped.. i juz had difficulties breathing.. it made me scared.. i was really scared.. have u fallen for her since she seems so nice to u now seeing that u have broken up and come fill in the space that u had for me? i dunno.. maybe she is so close to u i m scared.. i am scared the test of time.. i am really.. i m scared she will slowly walk into ur life without u knowing n become part of ur life.. but i know i muz trust u.. i will hold onto the words that u said today.. "i know u loved me alot n i also loved u alot.. but i juz dun wanna try for fun when i know i will be so busy and nelgect u again.. i dun wan things to happen like this again.." i believe that this is the way of u protectin me from tearin.. n i will not make ur effort go to waste..
i juz need u to sometimes show me that u do care abt me.. i like how i sms u that things are gg bad for me and u keep askin me dun be sad.. like so many times.. thank u.. i wan to know that u also dun wan to lose me.. it's juz that the time is not right.. n honestly speakin.. tim is after me.. but i am gg to speak to him abt things.. i wan to stay focused waiting for u.. i dun wan any distraction.. i have set my mind on u.. i miss u.. i do.. i even wanted to get u sony ericsson x1 so we can have the same phone again.. seems like i have to get an iphone to match it up to u.. :)
it was really a nice meetup today.. thanks for takin time off ur studies n talk to me abt things.. though we didnt really talked abt it.. but at least u let me know u care.. n when u brought out the yakult.. haha.. it brought warmth to my heart.. thanks for fetchin me to the train station.. letting me hug u.. n hushin me tellin me not to cry anymore.. i rem u told me u liked my eyes n will nv wanna see my eyes tear.. i promise u that i will try.. wait for me ok my dear.. i hope in another 6 months time we will be back together.. let this be a test for us..
n this blog be the avenue for me to talk to u.. :) good luck for ur exam.. my heart has nv left u..
"i wonder which part of the world u are at now.. but yeap tmr it will be my competition.. i dunno y i'm telling u this haha but yea u said u'll support me in all my comps.. but this time round u wun.. i guess it's lil diff for me i guess.. tats y these few days i'm spending it all alone myself.. i dunno wat's the link haha but yea.. shrugs take care"
a mixture of feelings when i read this.. happy n upset.. happy to show that i still mattered to u.. and that u do miss me.. n reminisce the memories that we have together.. and that u put down the wall of defend u have against me and send me a msg like this.. upset coz i so much wanted to support u.. if i could i would wan to fly back to support u..
i was glad i went to look for u.. i guess heaven was by my side.. i told myself if it rains when i wanna go find u means it's askin me not to.. then so luckily it stopped when i was done eatin.. so off i went.. n i knew definitely u wont wanna see me for long.. but who knows.. it rained.. n u wont bear to leave me standing in the rain.. so i came in.. then i told u i will go when the rain stops.. but it got heavier! :) muz be a sign from up above.. happy.. u know it's so difficult juz sittin 2 seats away from u n lookin at u from far.. i juz really miss u sooo much.. really i do.. then started talkin to u abt stuff.. i know u dun wanna say that u still love me.. i dunno wat's the reason behind it.. maybe because sayin it will make u feel more vulnerable n that u dun wan to be affected by it..
but i went to ur room.. i saw an iphone on ur bed.. i m sorry.. i went to see if it's ur phone.. n pressed the button.. the 1st thing i saw was mel's sms.. i m sorry.. i m not tryin to stalk or check ur stuff.. i juz wanted to see if it's ur phone and u have changed to an iphone.. i didnt even know wat did she sms.. i juz saw her name... n my heart really nearly stopped.. i juz had difficulties breathing.. it made me scared.. i was really scared.. have u fallen for her since she seems so nice to u now seeing that u have broken up and come fill in the space that u had for me? i dunno.. maybe she is so close to u i m scared.. i am scared the test of time.. i am really.. i m scared she will slowly walk into ur life without u knowing n become part of ur life.. but i know i muz trust u.. i will hold onto the words that u said today.. "i know u loved me alot n i also loved u alot.. but i juz dun wanna try for fun when i know i will be so busy and nelgect u again.. i dun wan things to happen like this again.." i believe that this is the way of u protectin me from tearin.. n i will not make ur effort go to waste..
i juz need u to sometimes show me that u do care abt me.. i like how i sms u that things are gg bad for me and u keep askin me dun be sad.. like so many times.. thank u.. i wan to know that u also dun wan to lose me.. it's juz that the time is not right.. n honestly speakin.. tim is after me.. but i am gg to speak to him abt things.. i wan to stay focused waiting for u.. i dun wan any distraction.. i have set my mind on u.. i miss u.. i do.. i even wanted to get u sony ericsson x1 so we can have the same phone again.. seems like i have to get an iphone to match it up to u.. :)
it was really a nice meetup today.. thanks for takin time off ur studies n talk to me abt things.. though we didnt really talked abt it.. but at least u let me know u care.. n when u brought out the yakult.. haha.. it brought warmth to my heart.. thanks for fetchin me to the train station.. letting me hug u.. n hushin me tellin me not to cry anymore.. i rem u told me u liked my eyes n will nv wanna see my eyes tear.. i promise u that i will try.. wait for me ok my dear.. i hope in another 6 months time we will be back together.. let this be a test for us..
n this blog be the avenue for me to talk to u.. :) good luck for ur exam.. my heart has nv left u..
Precious you
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