Friday, January 23, 2009
i did things that i dunno will touch him or will he even appreciate coz mel might be doin more than wat i m doin or even better than me.. i dunno.. i have so many queries that i dunno wat to do.. n honestly speakin, now i know wat it means by head is gg to burst.
i cant handle 2 situation at a time.. seriously.. one that i cant pry answer out and the other that wants an ans from me.. i am stuck.. really stuck.. zp was sayin sm y not juz stay single.. i seriously considered that.. but rejected again.. coz i wan to convince myself that wat n how we both felt for each other was true n real and that it would pass any hurdle ahead of us..
i dunno how to win ur heart back again or in the 1st place did i ever hold on to ur heart.. i was sooo certain initially but now ur actions makes me wonder.. did i not treat u well enough? i dunno wat ur heartless action to me is leading to.. to inform me that u dun like me alr, or juz protecting me to be hurt again.. then let me tell u.. it's not abt one gettin hurt or wat.. it's abt if both parties have got feelins for each other.. i questioned myself if u are still with mel at the end of the sem, will i let things go n juz move on? answer to my qn was tat if u tell me that u like her and that u are happy with her, i will move on.. seriously.. but if u still have feelins for me, i will fight.. since u dun wan to be the fighter.. let me be for this time.. remember 2-3 years ago when i juz entered uni? it was the determination u showed me that make me certain that u were the person i wan to spend my life with.. but i think as time goes by, we juz lose our focus.
i dunno how to save this unless u tell me how u feel. i hope u will uphold ur promise to give me an answer after this sem. n that u will sort ur feelins. coz ur action n ur tone juz dun match each other n it's really makin me so confused n my head so pain n my heart's tearin bit by bit inside..
less than 2 hrs of slp, to ensure a delivery of breakfast not to be missed if u have got 830 lesson.. even it means slpin on the floor.. waiting for u for 3+hrs juz to at least catch a glimpse of u before u start ur day to know if my breakfast have at least brought a smile to ur face.. but i didnt managed to see it.. haiz.. i dunno wat i shd do.. i am tryin to be there for u to help u thru.. but i dunno if i am jus redundant..
all i know is that u really mean alot to me.. i dun wan to lose you.
i cant handle 2 situation at a time.. seriously.. one that i cant pry answer out and the other that wants an ans from me.. i am stuck.. really stuck.. zp was sayin sm y not juz stay single.. i seriously considered that.. but rejected again.. coz i wan to convince myself that wat n how we both felt for each other was true n real and that it would pass any hurdle ahead of us..
i dunno how to win ur heart back again or in the 1st place did i ever hold on to ur heart.. i was sooo certain initially but now ur actions makes me wonder.. did i not treat u well enough? i dunno wat ur heartless action to me is leading to.. to inform me that u dun like me alr, or juz protecting me to be hurt again.. then let me tell u.. it's not abt one gettin hurt or wat.. it's abt if both parties have got feelins for each other.. i questioned myself if u are still with mel at the end of the sem, will i let things go n juz move on? answer to my qn was tat if u tell me that u like her and that u are happy with her, i will move on.. seriously.. but if u still have feelins for me, i will fight.. since u dun wan to be the fighter.. let me be for this time.. remember 2-3 years ago when i juz entered uni? it was the determination u showed me that make me certain that u were the person i wan to spend my life with.. but i think as time goes by, we juz lose our focus.
i dunno how to save this unless u tell me how u feel. i hope u will uphold ur promise to give me an answer after this sem. n that u will sort ur feelins. coz ur action n ur tone juz dun match each other n it's really makin me so confused n my head so pain n my heart's tearin bit by bit inside..
less than 2 hrs of slp, to ensure a delivery of breakfast not to be missed if u have got 830 lesson.. even it means slpin on the floor.. waiting for u for 3+hrs juz to at least catch a glimpse of u before u start ur day to know if my breakfast have at least brought a smile to ur face.. but i didnt managed to see it.. haiz.. i dunno wat i shd do.. i am tryin to be there for u to help u thru.. but i dunno if i am jus redundant..
all i know is that u really mean alot to me.. i dun wan to lose you.
Precious you
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