Tuesday, February 17, 2009
juz came back from perth not long ago. travel as a passenger back. feelin's good..
ermm.. sometimes i wonder.. really wonder if u really wanna get back or work things out with me is because u want to or is it u are obliged to coz u think that i love u so much n that it's better for u this way. coz i feel if u dun love me that much and wanna protect n love me so much as before then wat's the point one might ask. right.. it wont last coz in the long run, another girl might just catch ur eye..
maybe it's the signal u give.. i keep reminding myself abt how u wake up early in the morn, sms mei the night before n stuff that u do still care abt me.. but i am just afraid wat ur actions are might not be wat and how u feel or wat u even want.. other than the initiating of pickin me up, i nv see u wanna talk to me, but it's a relief that u do reply when i sms.. but i wonder is it out of courtesy or because u want to. i know.. i wan to be understandin that now is ur stress period.. i wan to be there for u.. but i dunno if u wld wan me to be there for u or u are juz used to not having me there with u.. i dunno wat to do..
whether i shd let u do wat u wanna do n when u wanna talk to me then i will talk if not i dun bother u.. or shd i keep sms-in u and make my presence felt, but maybe u might take my presence for granted or juz think that this is too much for u coz mel dont pester this much? i dunno.. m i suppose to act how i act in the past towards u? or i shd refrain.. tt's juz too many questions i wanna ask u but it's juz not the right time i suppose.. haiz..
i am feelin this insecure abt ur feelins towards me coz truthfully speakin, tim has been sendin me so much sms abt how he feels towards me askin me if there is no chance for him to chase me back n stuff.. it's juz made me scare that u dun really wan to be back with me so much.. as compared to him. i juz need some reassurance n ur sms abt after ur events n midterms thingy calmed me alil.. all i juz need to know is how u feel and wat u feel n wan..
pardon me for feelin so insecure.. i m sorry.. i know it's tirin for u.. but i'm not pesterin u am i? haiz.. i juz dunno wat to do.. maybe i am juz afraid that u dun love me anymore.. n maybe i have alot of qns unanswered.. :) i hope u will hope the strudel i bought for u.. n all the tim tams n stuff to bring to eat when u dun have a meal n lazy to go get.
ermm.. sometimes i wonder.. really wonder if u really wanna get back or work things out with me is because u want to or is it u are obliged to coz u think that i love u so much n that it's better for u this way. coz i feel if u dun love me that much and wanna protect n love me so much as before then wat's the point one might ask. right.. it wont last coz in the long run, another girl might just catch ur eye..
maybe it's the signal u give.. i keep reminding myself abt how u wake up early in the morn, sms mei the night before n stuff that u do still care abt me.. but i am just afraid wat ur actions are might not be wat and how u feel or wat u even want.. other than the initiating of pickin me up, i nv see u wanna talk to me, but it's a relief that u do reply when i sms.. but i wonder is it out of courtesy or because u want to. i know.. i wan to be understandin that now is ur stress period.. i wan to be there for u.. but i dunno if u wld wan me to be there for u or u are juz used to not having me there with u.. i dunno wat to do..
whether i shd let u do wat u wanna do n when u wanna talk to me then i will talk if not i dun bother u.. or shd i keep sms-in u and make my presence felt, but maybe u might take my presence for granted or juz think that this is too much for u coz mel dont pester this much? i dunno.. m i suppose to act how i act in the past towards u? or i shd refrain.. tt's juz too many questions i wanna ask u but it's juz not the right time i suppose.. haiz..
i am feelin this insecure abt ur feelins towards me coz truthfully speakin, tim has been sendin me so much sms abt how he feels towards me askin me if there is no chance for him to chase me back n stuff.. it's juz made me scare that u dun really wan to be back with me so much.. as compared to him. i juz need some reassurance n ur sms abt after ur events n midterms thingy calmed me alil.. all i juz need to know is how u feel and wat u feel n wan..
pardon me for feelin so insecure.. i m sorry.. i know it's tirin for u.. but i'm not pesterin u am i? haiz.. i juz dunno wat to do.. maybe i am juz afraid that u dun love me anymore.. n maybe i have alot of qns unanswered.. :) i hope u will hope the strudel i bought for u.. n all the tim tams n stuff to bring to eat when u dun have a meal n lazy to go get.
Precious you
8:30 AM