Thursday, February 19, 2009
Today was the 2nd day of overdose seein u.. It was really nice but still alil unbelievable like a dream like wat I have been fighting for is here now..
I jus can't help to just start gettin worried.. Imagine someone that u loved so much didn't wanted to have anything to do with u suddenly jus became the original him n started being nice to u once more n not much of a reason was given.. Is it smth one shd worried abt? Cos if the reason was I love u alot then in the 1st place y were u so mean to me n hurtin me n gettin back at me by being with her..
It makes me wonder if the reason for the change cld be cos u love me alot still.. Pls dun blame me.. U have made alot of unexpected decisions I was caught aback n I m really scare gettin back with me is smth u do out of u don't know wat u're doin.. Cos I bot u smth u wan, u jus feel touched n wanna get back.. N one day u will realize that u dun wanna be with me like how u dun wanna be with mel..
Tim has said too much that have set me thinkin of things I don't wanna think.. He scolds me for always being ready to come up with excuses for u.. N askin me y dun u seems excited seein me or even wanting to meet me.. I have always pushing the blame to ur midterms now n studies.. But I do feel alil that u're not excited to see me n I m scared to know y..
U nv ask abt my flights is when n stuff n I was alil taken back when u told me u gg to have dinner with mel n karin.. Not that I mind u gg out with them.. I jus wonder y u nv wonder when I gg to airport n wanting to fetch me.. Or spend time with me.. N I had to ask u come fetch me.. sometimes I wonder m I tryin too hard to make things work out.. Maybe I shd jus stand back alil to stop being too nice or initiative.. Maybe then it will show u if u do really like me alot.. But sometimes I jus can't help it.. I jus wanna see u..
I jus can't help to just start gettin worried.. Imagine someone that u loved so much didn't wanted to have anything to do with u suddenly jus became the original him n started being nice to u once more n not much of a reason was given.. Is it smth one shd worried abt? Cos if the reason was I love u alot then in the 1st place y were u so mean to me n hurtin me n gettin back at me by being with her..
It makes me wonder if the reason for the change cld be cos u love me alot still.. Pls dun blame me.. U have made alot of unexpected decisions I was caught aback n I m really scare gettin back with me is smth u do out of u don't know wat u're doin.. Cos I bot u smth u wan, u jus feel touched n wanna get back.. N one day u will realize that u dun wanna be with me like how u dun wanna be with mel..
Tim has said too much that have set me thinkin of things I don't wanna think.. He scolds me for always being ready to come up with excuses for u.. N askin me y dun u seems excited seein me or even wanting to meet me.. I have always pushing the blame to ur midterms now n studies.. But I do feel alil that u're not excited to see me n I m scared to know y..
U nv ask abt my flights is when n stuff n I was alil taken back when u told me u gg to have dinner with mel n karin.. Not that I mind u gg out with them.. I jus wonder y u nv wonder when I gg to airport n wanting to fetch me.. Or spend time with me.. N I had to ask u come fetch me.. sometimes I wonder m I tryin too hard to make things work out.. Maybe I shd jus stand back alil to stop being too nice or initiative.. Maybe then it will show u if u do really like me alot.. But sometimes I jus can't help it.. I jus wanna see u..
Precious you
3:45 AM